Lava in a cup!

Today Carlee was in delighting herself by mixing much my dismay my perfume with products like detangler and soap! I thought she is in need of a science experiment! The thought that was going through my head was if I dont come up with an experiment she can do I may not have any bathroom products left. After briefly googling science experiments I found one . Simple enough i thought, we added vegetable oil to a clear drinking glass along with a food coloring tablet and salt. The effects were pretty cool, I then made a bad decision. At the time I didnt realize the demise of my plan! I filled up some medicine cups of salt and left Carlee to experimenting on her own! A few moments later she arrived in the office showing me her new experiment . This experiment involved the whole box of baking soda, a carrrot , piece of chocolate and a strawberry. I learned my lesson stay close by when doing an experiment and always remember Carlee will usually come up with her own experiment which will involve whole boxes of what ever she can find!

Circles

I feel like a cat chasing my own tail at times! I feel im lacking balance in my life. The scripture Proverbs 29 :18 pops into mind ,i need a vision. A friend was pointing out to me god is a god of order. If you look around his magnificent creations on earth everything is in patterns and certain order. Now i know why i feel like im in utter chaos, my life is not in a certain order flying by the seat of my pants is not working for me. Half finished projects lay in dissarray in my home. I strive to be as Christlike as possible each day. Jesus finished what he started. I admit this not proudly but humbly that I have failed to do anything with my whole heart as im doing one project im not in the moment. As im doing one thing my mind is always wandering off to what is next. Whatever you do work it with all your heart ,as working for the Lord,not for men. Colossians 3 :23. My goal is to be in the moment with all i do, to be present in whatever task is at hand,Whether it be playing with my daughter or cleaning the bathroom.

Time for a change in my life

I feel it is time for a significant change in my life. This change is not the way i had planned for it to be! Lately I have felt the gentle tug of the holy spirit speaking softly in my life. One thing it has said is to start living and quit waiting for everything to come to you. If you want change you have to be the change. Yes i will admit countless friend and mentors have told me this all along. My flesh is very stubborn. I feel as though i have a battle going on in my soul. One side belongs to the devil and the other to jesus. This is an ongoing spiritual battle. It is time to tighten my spiritual armor for this battle . Loose fitting armor allows for space for satan to creep in. All he needs is one tiny crack. A tiny knick in my armor and he is in meddling around in my life trying to crush my spirit and speak lies to me. It is time for me to quit storing jesus in a box on my shelf collecting dust only to get him out on sundays. The box i have been keeping jesus in is being thrown away for my jesus that im coming to know and love doesnt fit in a box.Jesus doesnt fit in a box he belongs at the center of my life. Ongoing trials in my life try to snuff him out like a candle. I will not allow him to be snuffed out like candle. my prayer to jesus is for me to have spiritual discernment in all aspects of my life in all the areas so that jesus s love may shine through me!

Tonights refection

My daughter and i enjoy playing nintendo together.Its a joy to play with her to watch her think im the greatest player.I love that she thinks im the best and most wonderful nintendo player.While watching me play she comments mom you are really good at this. We as christians need to have this awe and enthusiasm for Jesus. He is the greatest ! Jesus deserves for us to come to him like little children in awe of his greatness in all he does. As my daughter gets older i am prepared to not be the greatest in her eyes. With that being said we cannot let time pass when we dont let our saviour know he is the king on high and most valuable praised saviour in our lives. Another reflection i made while playing donkey kong was that we cant get too self absorbed in our walk with God. As i was playing i was thinking i have this game figured out so i started getting way over confident and a character jumped on me.My character died from my over confident actions of thinking i have this beat and figured out. I believe this happens or can happen in our walk with Christ. Things are going along smoothly and self kicks in and we get overly confident and satan is able to sneak up and attack when we were self absorbent. Im not saying we cant relax and know we are taken care of. Im saying we have to remember who we are confident in and who is in control of our lives. Each day we must remain on guard and in constant fellowship with our saviour. Satan is sneaky and will relish at a chance to sneak in and devour a person when they get over confident in self and look away from Christ!

tuesdays thoughts

The plans i had neatly written lastnight did not happen.Everything i mentioned to carlee to do today was met with tantrums and absolute refusal.I even at one point gave her time on the computer in an attempt to start the day over on a better foot.The attempt was unsuccessful. All she wanted to do today was watch tv,play the computer,dance and do the exact opposite of anything i asked her to do or wanted to do with her.She is growing more aggressive by the day. When things dont go her way she will just tear up what ever paper is nearby no matter what it may be.She seems to have severe complications in regulating her moods and behaviour.Nothing i do or say seem to make a difference.At this point i admit i am frustrated.It doesnt help for hubby to come home and ask what did you do all day with her?Then say she needs to be getting an education ,she has to go back to school.If he could just lay off and support me it would absolutely a miracle.I dont hav e any idea how to get my child to treat me with respect .If i cant get her father to how is she supposed to. I would love to get through homeschool with her and have a great day of learning and cooperating.sigh!

tuesdays goals

calendar time
days of the week
weather
praise and worship
read out of magic tree house book
read about polar bears it pertains to the magic tree house book
do math incorporate polar bears into it
write first and last name
game time
lunch time
tv time
art
active time
that seems like a full day with cooperation it should get done but we shall see if we can have a meltdown free day!

homeschool goals

learn address and phone number
learn to dial 911/i have told her this info but will refresh her on it
write first and last name
write address
tie shoes
learn what community people do/firemen etc.
gain more dressing independence
learn selfcontrol
use words instead of anger
learn self calming techniques instead of unleashing hurricane carlee
math goals
count by 1 s 2s 5s she can already count by tens and ones
ordinal numbers to the 12th place
addition beginning
subtraction beginning
patterns
graphs
charts
this only a partial goal list as it is getting late

some new techniques im going to try

As usual im up late surfing the web,trying to find the magic potion that will make homeschooling more sucessful and less stressful for Carlee and I.I found some strategies im going to try.Here is the checklist we are going to implement starting monday.
use a timer for work if she completes the work with the alloted time she will be give n a star for each subject the stars can be turned in for various things including a treat,computer time,tv time ,weather permitting outside time etc
write her schedhule on a dry erase board or paper and let check it off as she goes

also im going to try positive behaviour on my part and hers.Its easy to get stuck into a routine of ugh this is tough she isnt cooperating just want to scream mode.I am her mom she is a blessing to me even if she does take an hour of redirecting for something that should have taken five minutes.Positive affirmations this will work out .In public school i hated not know what was going on .I love this privelege of being able to know she is okay and not being mistreated or lost on a bus til five pm. My child is one big ball of energy if taught to channel this energy into constructiveness sh e will and can be a great success in her life.After all isnt energy a big thing most of us would love to have more of.She has plenty of it .Tonight she asked me mommy do you have tons of energy like me .My response no not quite as much as you . B y teaching her that its not bad to have fire lit under her path i believe it will be good.kids today spend alot of time being sedentary im glad mine moves around.yes its frustrating at times to see her constantly fidget but bottom line is she is my child my gift from god of whom i wouldnt trade for the world on a silver platter.

unschooling sprinkled with some relaxed homeschooling

when i first started homeschooling my daughter i thought i would try and recreate the classroom. wow was i ever wrong.recreating the classroom only caused frustration on carlees part and mine as well. i have been doing alot of research on unschooling. my plan now is to mainly unschool but sprinkle in some unformal lesson as needed. so far it is going great. unschooling doesnt put learning in a box it is just a way of life. it allows us to live life and enjoy eachother and explore the world aroun d us together. carlee hates worksheets so it allows us to take pressure off her because normally we dont do worksheets. today she learned about dinosaurs,did role playing aka pretend play and music always because she is always singing.also she did math today.none of which had to be pryed out of her. i feel good about customizing my daughters education to fit her own individual needs. i just learned a few days ago she thinks in pictures this should help me in her unschool\homeschool!

my experience at the altar

Circumstances today left me frustrated and heavy laden. Instead of taking my burdens to someone in the flesh i within my soul felt the need to go rest at the altar and give it all to my heavenly father.Tears dampened the altar flowing down my cheeks like a mighty river. I was finding it very hard to catch my breath. I desired to have deep breaths although all that was prevailing was short shallow broken breaths.Within what seemed to be a long time of pouring all that i had pent up in my heart to jesus i felt a presence behind me not approaching too closely but definitely a strong presence. i know that this presence was my guide the holyspirit. i was given a scripture 1 Peter 2:8. Through my experience today i learned that god is waiting to hear from us .H e is holding his hands outstretched towards us. Where flesh forsakes us and causes us more pain jesus will not.Take your burdens to him and feel the release of pressure from a world which can make you weary.Gather strength and renewed energy from your papa . His comfort is abundant his lap has room for all his children.Be still and know he is god !